फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी….

फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी….

फिर वो दीपक बुझा रही होगी….

फिर मेरे Facebook पे आकर वो…

खुद को बैनर बना रही होगी…

फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी…

फिर वो दीपक बुझा रही होगी…..

अपने बेटे का चूम कर माथा….

मुझको टीका लगा रही होगी….

फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी….

फिर वो दीपक बुझा रही होगी….

फिर उसी ने उसे छुआ होगा….

फिर उसी से निभा रही होगी….

फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी…

फिर वो दीपक बुझा रही होगी….

जिस्म चादर सा बिछ गया होगा…

रूह सिलवट हटा रही होगी….

फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी….

फिर वो दीपक बुझा रही होगी….

फिर से एक रात कट गयी होगी…

फिर से एक रात आ रही होगी…

फिर मेरी याद आ रही होगी…

फिर वो दीपक जला रही होगी….

Rain and You

I'm leaving now, but here is a reminder..
It will bring to you the days we walked through rain..
So when you wish to feel my hand in yours..
Or stroke your dripping hair-- Then kiss the rain..


Though leaving now, I wish I could be with you...
So when you feel overwhelmed with grief or pain..
And long for my caress upon your face...
The rain will touch instead-- So kiss the rain..


Whenever you have thoughts of this sad parting..
And salty tears your lovely cheeks do stain..
To feel the tears for you I'll surely have..
Do this, and I will too-- Go kiss the rain..


Whenever you are longing for my presence..
And times that we went strolling down the lane..
I'll whisper soft endearments on the breeze..
So heed the sighing wind-- And kiss the rain..


If ever you should pine to hear me speaking..
The thunder might burst forth with glorious main..
While drops that fall are sure to be my tears..
To feel them wet your skin-- Just kiss the rain...

Intoxicating beauty ...

The wrinkled bed sheet still reminds me of the waves which took us to a different world altogether... where only you and me existed ..

I wish that could have lasted forever ..

This is in the account for ... when you came yesterday in my dreams ... you were walking down some street..  don't know which... you were coming toward me.... and this is all that happened... thank you for such a lovely dream... love you ...

Fuck  man !!! I encountered the devil just now !!

Shit was just out of me when i saw her today walking down the street she was not a girl she was devil because humans can't be so beautiful. She was having ravishing beauty I just had my mouth open for a minute , even my heart was going to be poured out.

For a moment I thought I passed away.

She was fucking sexy.

This is a love letter to her , just wanna make her pinned to the bed ... ;-)

The first time I met you my stomach was lifted into my throat by one million butterflies & I nearly lost my shit. You caught me joking about what I would do to you if I got you alone & you laughed. I caught you watching me & laughed as well. 

That smile, I want to suck the enamel off your teeth some late night as we watch the city come alive. 

I want to watch the sunrise from balconies with you after a night spent discussing politics. 

I want to get under your skin. 

I want to listen & absorb your idea’s/ideals. 

I want to study the geography of your body. 

I want to start a revolution with you. 

I want to write secret notes on your back as you sleep next to me,

but what I really want is to tell you that regardless of everything, I love you.

Even if you never love me back… I love you.

I hope that when you’re laying in bed after a night spent in some distant state or country, watching terrible tv, that you don’t feel alone.

P.S. - I love you.

An Idiotic Lover (Just little less than you :P)

ItS all about Her Undying love

Those smiles that outshine the sun,
Those miles that your gaze could run
I have loved it all about you
Those lips that pucker as you talk
That brushing against me as we walk
I have loved it all about you
Those eyes that talk more than just words
That voice that chirps sweeter than birds
I have loved it all about you
Those hands that were crafted to fit mine
Those sparkles in your eyes when you see me they shine
The touch that injects goosebumps always
The scent of that breath intoxicates me always
The nose that tempts pup-attempts always
The neck that invites supple bites always
Always ready to mesmerize, that love gaze of yours
I end up spell bound, loving you always
And yes I have loved it all about you
I have loved the nail tattoos
I have loved breaking the taboos
I have loved locking horns with you
I have loved naming our unborns with you
I have loved standing against the world with you
I have loved embracing being curled with you
I have indeed loved it all about you my love
This love has given a lifetime of happiness
And it will take thousands of life to think of anything but you.
I have always loved it all about you. And I always will.

एक ख़याल तेरा

इन दिनों मासूम से एक ख़याल से गुफ्तगू होती है..
अपने बेरंग होने का एहसास होता है आजकल..
उसके अंजान इशारो पे जाने क्यू मुस्कुराता हूँ मैं
उसके बेतुके लतीफ़ो पे गुदगुदाता हूँ...
जान कर ग़लतिया करता हूँ,
और फिर सब जान कर भी हार मान जाता हूँ मैं..

इसी ख़याल के मासूम खिलखिलाते तानो मे
आजकल भोलेपन की तसल्ली पता हूँ मैं..
कभी कभी ये ख़याल चुप्पी मे बोलता है..
संजीदगी से मेरे तगाफुल हरफ़ टटोलता है..
और मैं अंजान बन कर उसके साथ फिर जी लेता हूँ..

अक्सर यू ही घंटो हम बतियाते हैं आजकल
अक्सर यू ही खुद मे ख्वाब बुन लेता हूँ मैं...

हाँ मोहब्बत है

जनता नही ये क्या नशा है जो चढ़ा है..
ना समझ है नादान दिल को के मोहब्बत ही क्या है..
कहने को लफ्ज़ नही मिलते और दिल मे एक तूफान है..
मगर इतना यकीन है मुझे और रहेगा हमेशा...
के अगर तेरी निगाहों मे देख के डूब जाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे....
अगर तेरी मुस्कुराहट मे सब गम भूल जाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे...
अगर तेरे आगोश मे दुनिया से दूर हो जाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे...
बस तेरे एहसास मे साँस पाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे..
एक पल दूर होके खुद से रूठ जाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे...
तुझे देखके और कुछ ना देख पाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे..
दो पल के साथ पे उमर भर ख्वाब पाना मोहब्बत है, तो हाँ मोहब्बत है मुझे..
बेन्तेहा बेपरवाह बेशुमार मोहब्बत है मुझे..
हाँ मुझे मोहब्बत है...मोहब्बत है... मोहब्बत है तुझसे..

The Bitter Truth

Some time I feel like someone is shrugging my shoulder and asking me "What is the sole reason for your existence on this earth ?" . And to be honest I really don't have any clue  , so as to what is the reason. Why the heck I am living a life which has no purpose for god sake.

All the efforts and endeavors are just being done to secure some respectable position in the society. But I often wonder, what is society all about? Will I be able to carry my luxuries with me to heaven ? (God knows if I belong there !!)

I feel insulted with the very instinct of failure. I have failed miserably in my life so far. And this has become a habit to accept the failure. I always dream to change the conditions but always one or the other factor are there put a constraint.

Being able to survive in this world without knowing your destiny is  not a big deal. The big deal is to identify your goal , dreams and live with them every now and then, embrace them and cuddle them. Working to bring about a change in the conditions is the only option left.

Changing my wallpaper to one of the IIMs not decided yet whether Lucknow or Kozhikode is the first step toward it, which should have been taken months ago. To live with a dream is roller-coaster ride. There are moment of joy , sadness and even cocktail of emotions.

I don't know why I am writing. But surely there has to be a reason for that.

Signing off for the day.

-Vikas Joshi